Then and now

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“Accept the present moment and find the perfection that is deeper than any form and untouched by time.” Eckhart Tolle

The above picture was posted this week on Facebook by a high school friend
It was taken over 30 years ago
I’ve been mulling over what it means to see this after so very long and thinking about who I was versus who I’ve become
Back then I was full of confidence and spunk
I was belligerent according to my father and courageous according to Mom
I felt alive with possibilities and couldn’t wait to see what the next day held
I swallowed whatever insecurity I felt and applied more lipstick
I understood that we only get one life and I wanted to live mine fully
I loved to laugh and play and sing loudly in my car with the windows down
I loved dressing up
I dreamed of faraway places that I knew I’d see
As far as appearance, I knew I’d never be the prettiest in the room or the ugliest
But, I knew my personality would sway the vote
I felt like I’d have a career in fashion and I did for twenty years
I look at the girl in the picture and I see my life
Who I was
is still who I am

There is a quote from Joseph Campbell I have saved, it says-
“We must be willing to get rid of the life we’ve planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us.“

So, I look back and remember that we only get one life
I’m living mine gratefully
I am full of spunk and confidence
Alive with possibilities and looking forward to each new day
I am also belligerent and courageous
Those things saved me
I am letting go of part one of my life, all the time
I sing in my car, everyday, loud and proud
Still love dressing up
I am still the girl in the picture
But, I am very touched by time and life
I think it’s inevitable
Memory lane can be a dangerous drive if you look in the rear view too long
My future is waiting
I’ll apply my lipstick and be ready

4 Replies to “Then and now”

  1. Suzanne Sugarbaker, is that you?!?!?!

    Beautiful post, as always.

    On Mon, Jun 18, 2018 at 7:32 AM, A Year of Noticing wrote:

    > Jennifer Jairdullo posted: ” “Accept the present moment and find the > perfection that is deeper than any form and untouched by time.” Eckhart > Tolle The above picture was posted this week on Facebook by a high school > friend It was taken over 30 years ago I’ve been mulling over what ” >

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