Black stallion

“Don’t think about all those things you fear. Just be glad to be here.”
Lyrics from the song, Hayling

I had a conversation today with a group of friends that are scattered all over the globe
We talk once a month on Skype
Today we talked about fear
How it slips inside us
Holds onto us
Debilitates us
We talked about what it looks like in our lives
How to move beyond it
Back to love
One of the women shared about Harry Potter and his Patronus
It’s a positive spell using your happiest memories to dispel the dementors
Another way of saying, it frees you from your fear
It’s bringing hope, happiness and desire to the light of your life
Out of curiosity, I took the test to see what my spirit animal is
It’s a black stallion
And I immediately thought of Michael
He has been strong and steady through all of my illness and recovery
He’s carried me a lot
He’s supported me and protected me every step of the way
Even when I couldn’t take the steps myself
He hasn’t prevented a fall, no one can
But, he’s encouraged me back up, every time
He’s Italian and there’s the Italian stallion in our vernacular already
Thank you, Rocky Balboa
He’s also beautiful to look at and very strong
And yes, he’s helped every bad thing that has happened
Go away
He’s always calming my fears and pointing me towards a light
Maybe he is a wish fulfilled
Made by a girl long before I knew him
To be my protector when I most needed one
He is my mate and my whole heart
I never knew the meaning of true love, until he came into my life
My family calls him, “the saint”
This illness he says, “ gave him the second chance to be the man God created him to be”
How amazing is that
He’s the best version of himself
He shows me how to be better
Kinder
Slower
Nicer
I am a person becoming but
I am not alone
I am also not living in fear everyday
I am reaching for hope, happiness and living out my desire to survive
With my very own black stallion to guide me to the light just happy to be here