More Beautiful Than Before

C4EDBD1E-D514-459C-8DA8-40B3B72FE7D2I was recently traveling with my husband on one of his work trips.
I had a little book recommended to me and I brought it along.
It may have been little but the words and stories that Rabbi Leder put down were enormous.
I literally had to stop reading more than once just to go blow my nose.
One of the first lines that grabbed me-
“One day the heart breaks and the words fall in.”
Let that one sink in a minute
Go ahead, re-read it, it’s that good!

I think there are things that never resonate
Until we break
There are lessons that never make sense
Until they do
He says in another chapter-

“Most of us lead pretty ordinary lives most of the time, and that’s a challenge in itself, because it’s hard to appreciate just how extraordinary ordinary really is.”

So
unbelievably
true
So hard to just be in the moment
Saying thank you for just waking up
And he’s not even close to done when this lesson emerges-

“ when you are visited by pain, let that pain bring new perspective and new priorities, new respect and more time for your body and your soul. Let It bring new wisdom that says, “ find meaning,purpose, and sustenance in your work-but do not confuse it with your life.”

How many days have I lost thinking about what I used to do
Who I used to be
When I was able
My life was my work

Who am I now?
What am I doing here?

He had a story near the end of the book about his childhood rabbi in Minneapolis
It’s the rabbis 90th birthday and his last sermon and he says
“Let’s look at one another. Let’s look at one another each day as if it were the last time. No matter how much we may have put it in the past, it is never enough. Let’s look at each other. Let’s touch each other. Lets cherish each other’s presence, each moment we are together- husband and wife, parent and child, brother, sister and friend. Let’s look at each other with new wonder, new feeling, new love. Let’s look at each other more. “

So while I’m trying to stop figuring out what’s next
I’m going to be looking
Really seeing what’s in front of me
Who’s in front of me with new wisdom
New wonder
New feelings
New love
And saying thank you
Every day
For this, is my life

2 Replies to “More Beautiful Than Before”

  1. Another great post! I have to read this book now!

    On Tue, Apr 3, 2018 at 5:33 AM, A Year of Noticing wrote:

    > Jennifer Jairdullo posted: “I was recently traveling with my husband on > one of his work trips. I had a little book recommended to me and I brought > it along. It may have been little but the words and stories that Rabbi > Leder put down were enormous. I literally had to stop reading mor” >

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